kacau...

what is love actually..can u defined it????i keep thinkng about it,,but still.......... no answer..!!!!!!!!its come easily but hard to avoid it...the more i tried to denied it the closer it be....tell me plez wht should i do....am i crazy???its difficult to live like thiss....
.....keep thinkng of smone who doesnt even know my name....
what the cruel think about life....its hard..!!!!really hard...

hari raya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

untung larr sapa yg dapat balik raya tu...ak gak yg tpaksa tpacak kt unimas ni..jd jaga la ktkn,lau smua org balik sapa yg nk jga????/kan??kan???sbb tu ak sukarela xbalik,,,sayg unimas la katkn.....huhu..
teringt time raya kt umah thun2 leps..lau time2 cam ni confirm ngah sibuk kemas umah,mak ak msti ngah sibuk cek barg2 dapur maklumla nnti dapt daging lembu kn nk mask....confirm kalut la mak ak tu...hehehe
!!!!!!!ak n akak ak pla tima ni la ktorg sibuk nk kems umah.time ni la ktorg bru nk kemas umah..awl2 xnk buat..last2 mint ni mula la nk kalut....hishhh ank dara..ank dara......
........tapi at least ktorg kems,ye la nnti ramai org yg nk datg umah...kaum kerabat ak dh la ramai...msti pnuh rr rumh tu....saudra sbelh ayah ak,seblh mak ak,keluarga suami akak2 ak, kluarga sblah isteri abg ak,,kluarga sbelh suami ak...eh silp ak x kawen ag la*****
...ha mcm tu la ramai ny fmily ak...
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skang ak raya sorang2..huhu nak balikkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

assalamualaikum.....hehehe
mlm ni ak nk citer sal hidup ak kt sni ckit...
eeeeeeeemmmmmmmmm....
alhamdullillah la kn wlpn sorang2, mak ayah jauh tapi hidup ak kat cni ok la...makin baik kot
setakat ari ni ak leh bgantung ngan dri ak lagi la....kira besssssssstttttttt gak rrr duk cni!!!hehehe

tapii sbelum munclny prkataan "best" ni byk dugaan yg ak hadapi...
first week ak kt cni lps mggu orientasi macm2 bnda tjadi tau tak...paling ak xsuka duit ak mlayang,benda lain ak xkesah au..tapi sal duit ni pening ckit rr....ye la sape je yg tak tensi0n bla dlm wktu yg sama 2 bnda pntg y bharga rosak..sakit hati tak???tensio000000nnnnnnnn gileeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr ak time tu...
hmpir rM1000 tau tak duit ak mlayng coz kna baiki n beli aset baru....dah la bru mask u,,byak tu duit yg nk gna..titiba laptop n phone ak wat hal...mmg sakit hati ak..

time tu ak sedih gilerrr,tipu rr lau ak cakp ak xngis k???sapa2 pom nangis kot dlm keadaan cmtu..dh la ak xknl sapa2...xde org pn ak nk mitak tolong....sooo0000,ak emo sorang2 rrr!!!!
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tapi alhmdullilah ad kawan yg sudi tolong ak...so00 ak xde la sunyi sgt..ak syukur dapt kenl ngan kawn ak ni..diorang baik sgt n otak pom giler2..kirany lau stress duduk je ngan diorang confirm dh lupa bnda laen...mslah semua hilang.......
@@@dekt u ni bukn seng au nk pilh kawan lau tsalah pilh habisla korang.#####
tapi ak yakin kawn ak kwn yg terbaik wlpon otak giler2 tpi ttap xlupa niat first datg cni nk blaja....wlpon diorang xtau,,,ak still lgi nk cakp ak sayng diorang wlpn xsmpai stahun agi kitaorng kenl...thank you my frens for being with me, comfort me n bring me up when im down...love u all so000 much..

kisah hidup nano

emmmmmmmmm.....
3 o'clock in the morning....im still awake...ssh tol la nk tido lena skang ni
mybe coz byk keje n slalu kn jaga malam so, mata pom dh tbiasa xnk pejam...
ak ni dh jdik cam burg hntu dah,asl mlm je jaga,pagi peteng mula la ngantuk,..masuk kuliah je mnguap @-@ penat la katakn...
ehem...
malm ni ak juz nk citer ckt sal diri ak la..
before.
.i used to get what i want, evrything that i wish to, i'll get it..
ank bongsu la ktkan..eVRYTHINg...no need to work to get it,just asking from  my daddy.mummy,my sister...and i'll get it for sure#####so words bdikari ke,bdiri ats kaki sndri ke mam xde lam kmus hdup ak..ap nk buat bukn ak y nk tpi dh mam mcm tu dri kecik ag...
but......
now.....
ak dh nekad ak nk hidp bdikari n alhamdullilah stakat ari ni hidp ak makin baik wlpn ak jauh ngan family ak..so xde la nk mnja2, nk ngada pn dh xleh..lau dlu ak xpndai pom nk buat keje umah..tapi skang smua bnda ak dh blh buat sndri...basuh bju,kems bilik, lipat baju  semua k buat sndri...bgus x????
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3 month ago.
tutt.....tuttt...(bunyi msej)
almak bos kat depn..(time ni ngah keje bodo2, nk cri pnglamn la konon padahal xnk duk umah)
...........tahniah anda dtawarkan ke unimas
...........ijazah sarjana muda sains komputer n teknologi maklumat
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time tu scra outomatik,ak pn xtau cam malaikat 44 lalu..ak ase cam smua bnda bhenti..ak dh mati kutu
...mmg giler rr ak lgsung xapply pn u tu..nma u 2 pn ak xpndai sebut UNIMAS""""apke bnda ye tu...dah la kurss yg ak xtau pun wujud..cam bangang kan???pya la k study dlu mati2 sparuh nyawa au, dapt 3.67 tu kira terrer ap??ssah tu nk dapat...tapi alik2 dapt kos lelong camtu mmg ak naik angin....hati mna yg xsakit???ha..ce citer sapa yg blh tgelak2 bila dapt reslt cm gitu???
..........time tu ak ase cam lmpu dlm dunia ak ni hbis bateri.gelap jeeee.,mam xde suluhan cahaya lgsg,,ak fed up gler nk hidp time tu,,dah semua mimpi siang ak hancur lebur xleh nk gam dah...fuhhh,,berat giler dugaan!!!!!
.........balik je umah 2 hari ak nangis xbrenti...xjmpa titik noktah..mam ak xtau nk buat ap..ak nangis je la,tu je y mmpu ak buat..ak ckp kt mak ayah ak xnk pegi,,biar je ak duk umah..ak bajet nk tggu pgiln kedua..so..ak x accept pom bnda tu..tpi ak xleh reject lau x ak x dapt msk u agi...lso ak buat bodoh je la...
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alhamdullillah tarikh dh tutp,ak igt ak dh selmat, ak xyah la nk naik balloon pi buni kenyalang tu kan..
at that time,sedih gak la kn coz ak dh xleh masuk u....time tu fikiq nk tggu org msuk minang je(tpi ad ke org nk mask pinang ak ni,,..skrng mak ak cakp nk kawin pm kna ad degree))...
..................ak cakp2 ngan mak ayah ak...dorang suh ak trima je twarn tu,diorng kecewa giler ak buat kputusn cam tu.....lau korng sedih x mak ayah cakp cm gitu???sedih kan?? sedih sgattttttttt....
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tuttt...tutttt mesej agi
...............untk mkluman saudari tarikh penerimaan kmasukn ke unimas dilanjutkan shgga______,....lupa rr ayt msej tu....
tapi hikmah ny disini..bnda tu bukak balik n makna yer ak ad masa tuk accept bnda tu.....so ak pn accept la tu pn gara2 mak ayh ak lau x......xde mkne nyerrrr!!!!!!!!!!!



tggal 6 september 2011..naik la ak flight sorang2 datg kt bumi sarawak ni..mak ayah ak xdapat ikut sebb ad smthing come up ttiba je...so means that now semua bnda ak kna pandai2 sndri ak la...nasib baik ak ni pndai hehehe,,kirany xde la bert sgt mak ayh ak nk leps ak sorang2 kan....
 n skrang tggl ak kat sini byk  sgt bnda yg tjadi time ak kat sini...nnti ak citer ag..sbb skarng dh lmbat n ak ad klas calculus pagi2 lg sok...so, korang tggu la ek...